Many of my friends are now married and several have gotten engaged in the past 5 months. I think I'm starting to feel the effects of being one of the 'single' friends. Everyone I know is either getting married or engaged or dating or about to date and I feel it's only going to get worse as time flies by.
I've been purposely removing myself from friendships lately. Coming to the realization that I am the one in most of my friendships keeping the relationship going has really been difficult for me because I love the people in my life but I often don't receive the same love and affection back. I'm just tired of trying; I can't do it anymore. I only hope the people I'm talking about are reading this and maybe putting things together.
Also, it's November 1st..can it please start feeling like it's November 1st instead of June 1st?
Take Care.
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Like moths to flame -Thrice.
That's what the intro to your post reminded me of, respectively.
Congrats on the good going in your life, I will pray for you for your difficult times. I miss you, get at me sometime and we can hangout. I have a fairly set schedule.
One thing I often must realize is that different people show affection differently. In my sophomore year of college, I was having a miserable time: I was falling behind in rowing, my classes were difficult, but -- most of all -- I felt like I had no friends at JU -- at least, none that cared about me. So God gave me an internship in China the next semester, and I got a real taste of loneliness, living in a 2 bed apartment by myself, around all these young, yuppie Chinese families, something like six-trillion miles away from home and blue skies.
And, low-and-behold, when I returned, I discovered that four or five of my fellow rowers had actually followed my time in China closely and often expressed how they missed me and how things were different without me. I was flabbergasted, but still talk with them all pretty often.
So, all I'm saying is: (1) I feel your pain -- I know what it's like to be alone and feel left behind a little; and (2) don't be super certain that they are not returning your affection and love -- they may just show it on different wavelengths.
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